Epicurus

I am so proud of this video............ ahhh!!!! I've alllllllways wanted to do this and I finally did!!!!! bagararaashg

Raking Leaves

Today after I left the soup kitchen I went to my grandparents house to rake their leaves. I've never raked their yard before and it is awfully big. My grandparents really deserved it because they help me out all the time with anything I need. I really am fortunate to have grandparents like them.

Soup Kitchen

Today I volunteered at a soup kitchen. My mom has been telling me should for quite some time now, but I never did just because I hate work. It was really sad seeing all the homeless people. It made me think about world hunger and what we could possibly do to stop it. I think we have enough food to feed everyone (especially if everyone was a vegan.) It's just a matter of economics, not everyone can afford the price of food. Luckily in the united states we have things like welfare and food stamps which help most people get by. Although in countries like Nigeria and Iran where there isn't as stable of a government, there isn't the kind of benefits that we have in this country. It just makes me remember how lucky I am to have been born here. At the same time though, I feel ashamed. I don't feel as if I deserve the benefits I get just because I was born on a specific part of the planet and someone who is born on another part of the same planet has starve to death. It's really a terrible thing to have divided up the world as we have.

Painting My Nails

I've never tried it. Probably never will again.

Outdoor video

I've never made a video outdoors before, but I've always wanted to. This video was kind of a flop and I didn't work that hard on it. It's was really cold outside and hard to get some good shots.

My First Tutorial

I've always wanted to make a tutorial but I guess I just never got around to it. Some people who follow my card flourishing channel on youtube have been asking me about it for some time. I'm really proud that I spent so much time on it and made it the clearest teaching best quality I could. I've never put this much effort into one video, but I'm so glad I did. I'm really proud of the outcome. I encourage anyone reading this to try and learn my flourish. Come on, try something new!

New Musician

I really love music. Although, one of my flaws is I like to stick with what I know. Which is one reason I'm doing this daffodil project.  So, I've been listening to the same general artists for the past year. I thought it would be a great idea to look for some new music and expand my experience. I did some searching around the internet and I found a really great group called "Sporto Kantes." Here's some of their music.

 

It's really weird and different which I love!

Cooking!

Today I cooked dinner for my family for the first time. I've never been against cooking, but it is just so much work. I would much rather make myself comfortable and let my family cook for me. Typical fat American mentality? I think so :) I've haven't cooked many things before. So, I went with a favorite of mine, grilled cheese! With soy cheese of course. My family seemed to enjoy it. I mean you can't really go wrong with a grilled cheese. haha

Paper Crane

My first ever :)

15 things I love about my mother

1. She is literally always there when I need her
2. She lets me not believe in god/ghosts/afterlife/souls without too much hassle 
3. She really appreciates the things that I love
4. She cooks for me
5. When I couldn't drive she would take me everywhere
6. She sacrifices for my happiness everyday
7. Sometimes she notices that I throw my dish in the sink without washing it and she doesn't say anything
8. She doesn't tell me to clean my room that much
9. She lets me chill with my friends all I want
10. She lets me do my own thing/ live my own life
11. She tries really hard to understand me
12. She knew me when I didn't know myself
13. She put me into a really good school district
14. A lot of what she does revolves around making me and my brothers happy
15. I used to be her dad in a past life

I taught all these people :)

I'm going to dotate whatever I can

Dehumanization

War is inevitable

We constantly feed

Feeding on those lesser

Bringing them to their knees

 Inject power into the veins

The blood streams of our people

Tarnish the core of the brain

Make them believe it’s not lethal

Prevalent blood shed

Cheers from the masses

As we wave our pricks

And raise our glasses

Who are you?

Your existence isn’t significant

We can’t feel you

When we see nothing but blank faces


- Marcus Shepherd

She was thinking "Whaat?"

If this doesn't put a smile on your face nothing will.

Why I Love Life..

Today I'm going to list 30 things I love about life (I've never even thought about this before.)

1. Sleeping in the nude
2. Eating a large cheese pizza by my lonesome
3. Being better then someone and something
4. When people ask me if I'm dating Sasha and I have to tell them that she's gay
5. Abstract art
6. Abstract people
7. Eccentric music
8. My mother and my brothers
9. The perfect flourishing video
10. Reading something that is so intelligent, that I can literally feel the endorphins being released in my brain
11. Accomplishing a goal
12. ARGUING
13. Admitting I was wrong and seeing the other persons disbelief when I do
14. Being wrong
15. Thinking about how all my possessions and family and friends and thoughts and ideas (for the most part) will be gone and mean nothing to me when I die.
16. Nothingness
17. Driving with the music blasting
18. Being young
19. Knowing more about a topic then your teacher (never Mr. Russel, I tremble at how knowledgeable he is, without a doubt the most intelligent person I've ever met.)
20. When my mom makes me my favorite dinner
21. Eating after I weigh in
22. Editing videos on my computer
23. Being vegetarian
24. Baby's laughing
25. Cenematography
26. Alan Watts
27. Not caring
28. Inventing card flourishes
29. Laughing until my cheeks hurt
30. Wow that made me feel better

 

Card Flourishing has been like a drug for me for years. It's a way for me to feel at peace. When I'm practicing it's so much like meditation. There is nothing but me and my cards. The repetition of me doing the same flourishes over and over is so soothing and relaxing.

I know I haven't been doing new things everyday. I mean I have but nothing substantial. I might change my project to reflection everyday, but I feel like that's a cop out since I do that anyways. I'll do something substantially new tomorrow I'm making a promise to myself.

"All truly great thoughts are conceived by walking." - Friedrich Nietzsche

I made this the other day.
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No Rhyme or Reason.

Throughout my life I have spent most of my time in my own head. I've analyzed myself endlessly. I've plucked and dissected every situation and decision I've made (not literally but you know what I mean.) My most prevalent habit is trying to find a reason for everything, but not just any reason, a sufficient and  logically sound reason. This may not be the best mind set to possess, but it is the one I currently have at this moment and I'm trying to be honest. It is very hard for me to experience something and feel the emotions which may result and let that be that. I constantly feel a compelling drive to analyze everything I experience in such a critical way. My girlfriend is the complete opposite. She is very comfortable with letting things be and moving on. It's quite remarkable to me how she can experience something just for the experience. It's as if we have two completely different brains. The first thing that comes to mind when I think about this is, one day I asked her if she truly believed in a god. She told me she did so I asked why. She replied with "because I want to." I could not let this go for the life of me. I probably spent 3-4 hours on this same topic with her trying to figure out how she can just do something and let it be without any kind of analytical thought. It's as if she completely removed any doubt and conflicting thoughts she had about the subject and believed it on pure faith and emotion. I truly and honestly envy her ability to do such a thing. She is and will continue to inspire me to do things just to do them. To live life without the explanations. To just be without trying to comprehend the before and after.

I have been doing things in my life, since I've been with this girl, that go against my current comfort zone. I am making a post on my blog that doesn't really have an intended rhyme or reason, it is just what it is, and I'm not going to proof read it or change any words or grammar mistakes. I'm just going to let it be. For one of the first times in my life I'm going to be okay with what is.

Dorm Room.

Today I'm sleeping in a college dorm for the first time in my life. So far, I've seen how the guys that live here interact with each other. It's very stereo-typical. A typical conversation would be "hey bitch" "you're a stupid faggot". Yes, very substantial and profound. Even though I feel these guys have nothing worth saying, I also feel very excepted and embraced. They even invited me to a party tomorrow, which was nice of them. Tomorrow morning I'm going to a wrestling clinic, which should be fun.

There is nothing substantial about this post, but not to worry. I have lots of ideas.

"It will be a great day when our schools have all the money they need, and our air force has to have a bake-sale to buy a bomber."  -  Robert Fulghum

I love you.

My first thing that I'm going to do is write I love you on everyone's blog.